Whataya want from me

I hate when I relinquish control of my life to circumstances or people. I need validation from others and approval, but they don't have to control how I feel. I tend to forget that. so hearing, after the fact I might add, that i my last show i got blamed for stuff that went wrong really irked me. And made me super self conscious about my acting. And those wounds are still pretty fresh...making me extra sensitive doing this new show. (I'm in a small production of "A Christmas Carol" in Springville) I'm extra wary and guarded and I shouldn't be. Some of my favorite people are in the show with me. *SIGH*

BUT...a couple of things have happened recently that have helped to partially rectify that damage to my psyche. My acting coach telling some some wonderful things about my acting in front of our class was amazing. To quote my friend who is taking the class with me "That was quite the accolade" and it was. Then, tonight, having that same friend talk me out of my self-imposed funk also helped. I am better and ready to proceed. Listening to some Evanescence and finding the perfect 80's audition song also helped a TON. (Though now that I think about it, a billion girls will probably sing it but oh well, they won't sing it as well as I. =D)

Anyway, that is all for now. Just really needed to blog tonight. =)